so this is love...
Aug 23, 2010
Im back at college. After a very long and hard summer, i think that i deserve how im feeling right now. I did end up losing 2 very close friends of mine. Jason wanted me to cheat on my fiance w/ him, and Elianna, well, i guess she never really thought of me as a "true" friend to her. On a good note i did make a new best friend. She is very sweet and understanding. She sometimes creeps me out because she acts & thinks exactly like me. & I got to get to know my friend Nick better so i guess he can replace Jason as my one close male friend lol. Other than that, my job sucked and i realized that i was starting fights w/ my fiance because i missed him.... alot. It was just a horrible way of me showing it. ><
But now i am truly at peace. Ive been spending alot of time with my fiance and friends. They make me feel very loved. Having this massive bed in my dorm is therapeutic! I love how there is LOTS of room for me & terence to move around in. ;] aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. (=u=) yea.... My dorm actually feels like HOME! My new roomie is badass. I have a new $3000 camera. I have like NO classes in the morning!!!! I have absolutely no grudge or hatred against anyone. I no longer have the urge to kill. I see humans in a better way now.... for some reason i see everyone as family...(ill save my thoughts on this on another day)
Especially since he is with me again. Waking up in his arms... It seemed like he was holding me like he never wanted to let go...
Thank you. God.