PuriCute

Sometimes I think I'm missing an important part of my life ... it is as if time just stopped divesse me. Everything is so monotonous, so like, so normal. :(
Is tedious think what you do today, so will tomorrow. You know that will not change, even to stay optimistic, will not make much difference ... Things will happen on the same stream ... Same as yesterday.

Is as if he saw the same scene over and over, or living them.

you wake up, go to work and back ... Always the same ... taking the same bus, on the same schedule ...
possibly with the same people down at the same point, greet the same people working with you, and seem more tedious than you or sometimes, more satisfied.
Hears the same songs in the bus, and when you connect your computer to finally start working you know you will find the same boring e-mails that you have to answer... x:

You can not at least have the hope that something changes or something happens ... Because deep down, you wait for it and know it will not happen. u-u
It would be easy to just change your routine and leave it all behind? Giving a 'fuck' and ready? >_<

But I lack the courage to give up and try to follow another direction, a direction that I do not even know what or where to start ... x:

And after all that ... after all the negative feelings, all the pain that still lingers in his heart, after all the discouragement, stress, lack of courage, you still have hope that that person makes you forget it all, and you take me far away, where nobody knows you and where nothing matters. Because it's only you and him. Together, in a quiet place ... ~ *